Sorry about not blogging for a few days. I am getting kinda busy with new exciting projects. One of which is I now take photos for Street Peeper.com which is an amazing opportunity to get my work out there on an international level as the website has a huge following world wide.
I also have a new call centre job (hopefully will be my last call centre job ever because of these exciting new projects) I need all the money I can get for Japan. The Yen went as high as 67 one day but I didn't change my money because I was too busy at work, then it went down to 65 the next day so I thought I would wait and now its at 59 ahhhh so annoying. As soon as it hits 63 or higher I will change my money, that is if it hits it. I don't really care though, it would be nice to have some extra money for shopping, but all I care about is seeing my friends, pretty much every time I get an email from one of them I burst into tears (may also be because it's that time of the month). The strange thing is I don't have a desire to move back to Tokyo anymore. I think its because I have a really good life here now, which I didn't think was possible before. Pretty much since 2004 I have been working in dead end jobs, all call centres and they have I guess tainted my existence here. Now I see that maybe there are opportunities here and you just have to go for it. I thought maybe I would have to live in Tokyo to have a career in something creative, or at least a job I liked (I did like teaching English A LOT, well, compared to working in a call centre) This may all change when I am over there though and I'm really really worried I will fall back into that deep depression I had when I got home last time. Hopefully starting Uni, working on these new projects and having my good friend visit me from Scotland plus fashion week all in the month I get back will help me avoid it. Oh and Yvan will be here too. So many good things to look forward to, gotta stay positive. I never ever want to feel that way again.
I never really spoke about it on my blog, I always put on a kinda fake positive spin, but for the first 6 months of 2008 I barely got out of bed, didn't see my friends and pushed Henry away, among other things. If you ever feel that way talk to someone because eventually I saw a counsellor who helped me see that I do have a lot to live for here. I never went on anti depressants though, the Doctor I saw said my depression was circumstantial and they wouldn't help me. Basically I have had to help myself. That is why I am so amazed at everything that happened towards the end of last year, I really worked on myself, changing my outlook and then boom good things just kept happening and they still are. I think I'll be fine coming back this time though, like I said there is so much good stuff lined up for March and the rest of the year that there will be no time to get all moppy. I felt so guilty, and still do, that I could have been so unhappy when there are people in the world who have things far worse then I did.
Oh and I still work at Melbourne Street Fashion.com (I am passionate about that site, its like my baby) and there will be some news about stuff happening there soon.
There are other new developments in my "career" (wow I never thought I would say that word but all this is turning into a possible future) which I will let you all know about as soon as its all finalised.
Hopefully I'm getting a new camera tomorrow, thanks to Henry.
So all I can say is stay tuned.